My COVID-19 experience

My mind story

When I went to bed last night, I started to have a fever. My wife helped me take my temperature, it was 37.6. I felt a little weak. During the day, I wore a mask and walked to the clinic by myself. I found that there were a lot of people crowded inside and there was no place to sit. Before entering the clinic, I saw the registeration app on iPad to report patient's temperature. I thought if I had a fever of more than 37.4 degrees in the past, I had to report honestly. Though my fever had dropped before I left home, I still answered truthfully. However, when the nurse helped me take my temperature, it was 38 degrees. After the doctor’s diagnosis, he said that the Singapore government has stipulated that as long as patients have a fever, they must be screened for COVID-19. At this time, I was scared, but on the other hand I wanted to say that this was something I had never experienced before. The doctor asked me: am I from Taiwan? We were chatting for a while, he said he is also a Taiwanese, and he has been in Singapore for more than 30 years. After the screening, the doctor told me He thinks I am less likely to have COVID-19, but he suspects it is dengue fever He said that if the fever did not go away within three days, I would go to a hospital for an examination. When I returned home, my wife asked me to stay alone to isolate myself for quaranteen. My daughter asked me if I was afraid. I said a little bit. I knew I made them worried, and I also told them I was sorry. But when entering my room, I instantly saw a letter they left in the room to me, which made me felt so touched that my tears flowed down and made me think a lot by myself in the middle of the night. I did a few mindfulness exercises, from which I felt compassion toward myself in seeing my pain and worry from my family. I also developed kindness toward myself willing to visit a clinic for diagnosis and quarantined at home. I could live with it positively becasue if I really got it, at least I had good medical care in Singapore, not in other relatively less developed countries, and the mortality rate of COVID-19 was not 100%. In the end, I would face it with let-it-be attitude since at this moment I was still alive; therefore I surrenderred myself to the future.